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moving

Sun, 12 Oct 2008 16:11:17 GMT

moving to a new blog.

mite update here if i feel like =)

Sun, 12 Oct 2008 14:32:01 GMT

is it me or just the hormones?

so many things happening.

arghh.

frm the accident to power ranger to me falling sick.

i think its basic courteousy to ASK .

i feel so %&%$$((!

friends.......

will they be there when u need them?

roar

sorry

Sun, 12 Oct 2008 14:23:27 GMT

i was wrong.

sorry for all the bad things that i did.

i misunderstood u.

sorry power ranger ah long.

i was blinded by my emotions.

i shouldnt have doubt you.

i shouldnt have left you.

i shouldnt have hate you.

afterall, u are the one who will always be there to protect me from harm and hear my rants.

but u shuldnt keep mum and let me misunderstand you.

because i wun know how you felt or know your thoughts if u were to do that.

different pple have been telling me different things about u and what happened.

but i choose to believe the kinder and better side of u.

afterall, no matter what i did, u never raised your voice at me nor scolded me even though u were known to have a foul temper.

u saved my granny.

u saved my mum.

u helped me with my sch fees.

how could i ever repay u.

you are just like my yeye, showering me with unconditional love.

you didnt utter a word when i gave u attitude.

sorry power ranger ah gong.sorry.

519 is so messy now.

i dun even know what will become of us.

even if i dun go to 519, i just hope that u can visist me in my dreams and talk to me like you always did.

i miss u ah gong

home alone

Sun, 12 Oct 2008 13:56:53 GMT

granny and yeye will be leaving for their holiday soon.....

and i'll be home alone for the upcoming days..

i'm feeling so purplexed all of a sudden.

so lost, lonely and emo suddenly la.

i feel like hugging granny and yeye before they go =)

i'll miss their presence at home.

i'll be independent.

granny has alrd stocked up cup noodles and the fridge =p

yes, i feel so loved and pampered.

nobody love me more than yeye and granny

i'll cook, wash and ~~try to~~ remember to water yeye's plants.

i hope ah lun can take time off his busy work to spend time with me.

its been quite some time since we last met.

and i miss u like real bad.

and i'll pray for a safe trip for yeye and granny............

~~argh, i'm starting to tear and i duni why.~~

it must be the hormones..........................

stop crying nini

bintan and me

Tue, 07 Oct 2008 04:08:37 GMT

i'm hallucinating and imagining myself in Bintan.

putting on my housefly shades and taking long walk by the beach.

drawing on the soft sand

sipping fresh coconut juice

taking bubble bath

awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww

BUT I'm feeling bloody miserable in Spore.

Lying on my bed with lotsa germs.

Feeling like a bloaty merlion ready to vomit anytime.

awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww

I feel pregnant with a hamster's appetite and stomaches and nauseous feeling.

but i am not.

damn.............

tell me u miss me in Bintan..

Perhaps u'ld like to photoshop my face in that lovely Bintan pics that u guys took.

seperation anxiety

Sun, 05 Oct 2008 14:28:03 GMT

i think my body's weird.

its protesting as part of the seperation anxiety..

everytime i leave home, as in like camp or travel,i am bound to fall sick.

why why .. tell me why.

and tml is the day i'll be going bintan and here i am sick with stomach flu.

and the virus is emoing i think, sometimes i feel ok, sometimes the fever just come back.

and my appetite is as tiny as a hamster, ok maybe bigger than that.

i only ate half roll of chee cheong fan and 1 slice of bread for the entire day.

god...........

even though i said i wanna watch cable tv at bintan but dun grant my wish this way.

i feel terrible.

mr allan tan ................................................................................... i want u to sayang me,

farewell

Fri, 03 Oct 2008 14:35:31 GMT

i'ld be lying if i tell u that i am fine

i may look lame, silly, funny all the time, but thats nt who i really am.

thats just one of my masks to cover my insecuritlies.

if u're one of my closest friends, u'ld have probably seen zero confidence, negative , paranoid side of me.

dun start to point fingers because i believe everybody has the other side of them which they keep dear to their hearts

i am very affected by my power ranger incident.

but i'm slowly walking out.

enough of crying and talking to the wall in the middle of the night hoping u'll hear what's deep down my heart.

ENOUGH.

Like what Guan Lao Ye say, walk straight and dont look back.

what's done cannot be undone and there's no need to look back and live in grief

I would very much like to hate u but i just cant do it.

Ah Gong, farewell forever~

U'ld always have a special place in my heart.

If fate allows, i hope that i can be by your side and serve you with my purest heart once again.

bye

Wed, 01 Oct 2008 14:52:01 GMT

goodbye power ranger ah gong.

goodbye..

i had always wanted to stay by ur side...

i had always wanted to be fillial to u...

bt u disappoint me and hurt me...

very.

and now i dun even wanna think bout u.

its too hurtful...

its scary that my once beloved power ranger Ah gong has transformed into a monster.

i miss the old u..the power ranger ah gong that i used to respect and adore.

even though u hurt me, but i still wish that somebody will take over my place and be fillial to u.

i cannot bring myself to hurt u.

and i guess my departure would be the best option.

i had enough of the rebelling and showing attitude behavior when i see u.

u think i enjoyed this?

NO.

i know u've helped me and protected me frm harm time and again, but i wun be happy staying by ur side.

i cant change ur mind nor pretend that nth has happened.

maybe the bf is right, my fate wth power ranger ah gong has ended and i cannot force things to go my way

If u wish, i still welcome u to visit me in my dreams.

On another note:

Hello Guan Lao Ye. =)

Thanks for the guidance, =) i feel mch happier now.

And shall look back no more.

Be Brave and Strong Nini.

U can live without ur power ranger ah gong =)

Sun, 28 Sep 2008 17:21:52 GMT

i'm nt happy

guess where i got my lameness from

Sat, 27 Sep 2008 06:31:47 GMT

Hello Hello....

Since the previous post was based on my 21st birthday party which is next yr.

I've discussed the numerous themes that i might be using with ah lun.

and that monkey of mine nv fail to amuse me.

Nini: Hey hey, Dar, what theme should i have for my party?

Ah Lun: anything lor. ( TYPICAL ANSWER FROM MR ALLAN TAN)

Nini: Victorian/ Royalty/PJ/ Beach???? etc etc

Ah Lun: Beach la.

Nini: Ok lor, then u wear bikini ok.

i thot the conversation will end here. BUT NO!!!

Ah Lun: Dear, my size is A cup. so u buy A cup for me. (LMAO)-_-"

NiNi: *Roll Eyes* wah. Hot ah Hot ah.(ROFLOL)

see... nana.. nw u know where i gt my lameness from...

sing sang sung

Sat, 27 Sep 2008 06:14:19 GMT

安静了- SHE

只剩下钢琴陪我站在这里
梦想中属于我们的婚礼
却成了单人结婚进行曲
在这场爱情角力的拔河里
爱我还是爱你
你选择了自己

Woo~
撒娇的可爱的女人的爱哭的
照片里曾经的都是你喜欢的
如今我还在原地
你却走回你的记忆

你说我爱你太多
就快要把你淹没
你害怕幸福短暂一秒就崩落
分开是一种解脱
让你好好的想过
我想要的那片天空
你是不是能够给我

你说我给你太多
却不能给我什么
分不清激情
承诺永恒或迷惑
爱情是一道伤口
我们各自苦痛
沉默是我最后温柔
是因为我太爱你

只剩下钢琴陪我站在这里
梦想中属于我们的婚礼
安静了在我整天的梦里
我知道相爱根本就不容易
爱不是一加一
努力就有结局
Woo~
撒娇的可爱的女人的爱哭的
照片里曾经的都是爱着你的
廉价的泪还温热
却没有人握我的手

prisc... u make me addicted.

nini's adventure

Thu, 25 Sep 2008 15:47:42 GMT

The royal highness went shopping all by herself today.

No guards.

No servants.

Not because she was independent but rather everybody's busy.

I guess its nt as bad as i imagined to be like.

and i still bought alot of things in the end.

i even lugged a shoe rack home.

can you visualize how pro i am now?

when i am home, i fixed my two tier shoe rack all by myself.

wanted to ask ah lun or daddy to do it for me but then its rather annoying to see it lying on the floor

so being the typical itchy handed nini, i decided to prove the whole world wrong by fixing it

and ta dah~ i did it =)

pls applaud my achievement =)

and i display all my shoes neatly.

whoo hoo~

nini's 21 birthday party

Sun, 21 Sep 2008 15:53:53 GMT

i found sponsor for my official legal birthday party.

ya.. its 21st.

okok. i know that it is far too too too too early to plan.

but my kiasu mum keep asking me.

so... i've gt no choice but to think.

actually i am ok wth not celebrating. bt my mum insist on making it grand because all my cousins made theirs grand.

i think i will hold 2 celebrations.

1 to satisy my mum and 1 to satisfy myself.

Tentative venue: My aunt's condo function room (yes, my mum will be booking it alrd) she's that kiasu

WARNING: ITS AT CLEMENTI, so be prepared to travel frm one end to the other. dun say i nv warn hor. give u at least one yr warning in advance alrd.

Theme: Dress to kill/ PJs/ Princess/ Victorian (to be advised when date is near, u know hw fickle minded i am)

Cateror: MUM has alrd bk. my mum is THAT efficient.

Celebration 2 is of coz for me and my silly boy =)

maybe we'll go on a getaway and he might propose.. and i'll come back with a big diamond ring and be known as Mrs Allan Tan.
coz long long ago he said he'll marry me when i turn 21.

haaha.. no la. siao. THAT was when we were young and innocent. When he was in POLY which is like 4 yrs ago?!

message to exam god

Sun, 21 Sep 2008 15:40:24 GMT

Exam god.

same routine pls.

pls help me.

i just wanna pass the second test like hw u help me pass the first test.

u can either help me wth my tikam skills or create a miracle whereby all the textbook facts just suddenly decided that my brain was a better home for them instead of the textbook.

pls pls pls pls pls.

nw that i cant yell for help from my power ranger anymore.

thank u v mch =)

exam god i love u =)

date date date

Sat, 20 Sep 2008 12:44:17 GMT

Nini: Dar, later go Charles and Keith ok. I want to use my voucher.

Ah Lun: Cannot. Always buy shoe. When will your voucher expire?

Nini: I duno eh . Go la. By the way, I want to buy shoe rack to display my shoe eh. Duno where to buy from.

Ah Lun: U arh. Buy shop to put your shoe better. So many shoes. i keep your voucher for u. going to expire then return u.

-_-"

and i made ah lun wet by insisting to go kpo and see whats the smoky mist at the esplanade.

turns out that its just people using something to wash the road to prepare for F1

but i still insist he go kpo with me and spin a few round thinking we are in heaven before we leave. its so cool la.. feel like shen xian =)

*before i end my post, just like to say this to somebody.

if u think its u then its u. dun ask me who i am referring to. u know who u are.

so what if i am taking a bank loan to pay my sch fees, u have no right to look down on me.

i dun hafta take up any job just to pay my bank loan.

i have savings. and by the time i graduate, i will be able to repay my loan at one go before they have the chance to charge me interest.

and its nt the first time that u have made hurtful comments to me.

i just wish people would be more tactful when they speak.

sing sang sung

Fri, 19 Sep 2008 05:04:50 GMT

萧亚轩 - 冲动

很感激这城市拥挤的交通
让你我还能多相处几分钟
人潮中 怕失散所以轻轻拉你的手
一刻不放松 不放松
忍不住 想要爱你的冲动
不确定你属于我 会有点寂寞
你给的幸福 在我心中自由走动
抚平我每一个伤口
忍不住 想要吻你的冲动
不确定我的执着 能让你感动
我只能相信自己感受 不怕失落
关于你的一切 我想要比谁都懂
我的心是被你设定的闹钟
提醒我想你的时间不够用
为什么平淡的事情现在忽然生动
是你改变我 你改变我
你是情人还是朋友
还没勇气想得太多
你的世界如此辽阔
我会在哪个角落

Fri, 19 Sep 2008 02:45:34 GMT

Ah Lun is getting clingy and mushy =)

whee... i like....

and and and..

i think ah lun is ~~secretly moving~~ or rather being trained by me to move into the si wen bai lei type that i like =)

1. Long sleeve office collar shirt--> check
2. Leather shoe --> check
3. Brains --> check
4. Sense of Humour --> check

wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee =)

nini can cook so can u

Sun, 14 Sep 2008 13:45:36 GMT

Hello Earthlings =)

I cooked my own dinner today =)

Maggie mee with tom yum soup plus crab sticks plus fish cakes plus egg.

sounds yummy, looks yummy and taste yummy =)

ta dah~ presenting to u "nini can cook"

actually i can cook, bt its whether i want or dun want to do it.

i've baked cookies for ah lun before and made him dinner.

a three course dinner =)

its your honor if you can try my cooking because nt everybody gets the honour of tasting what your royal highness cooks =)

not for the faint hearted

Sat, 13 Sep 2008 15:32:33 GMT

=) i hav a sweet boyfriend

evidence 1: the boyfriend said: "Dear Dear, you're the best" and added on "In case u dont know, u're really great"

evidence 2: the boyfriend sa jiaoed for me to fetch him frm wrk before we catch our movie but regretted 5 secs later because he dun wan me to get tired. =)

evidence 3: the boyfriend walked to mcdonald when i hav craving for fries.

evidence 4: the boyfriend bought me ice cream when i wanted it.

evidence 5: the boyfriend sang me a love song

evidence 6: the boyfriend caught wall e with me despite him being uninterested in the movie.

conclusion: =)

nini is happy <3

world war 3

Tue, 09 Sep 2008 05:57:55 GMT

i am in my own imaginary world.

i started world war three with ah lun in my imagination.

and i called him to ask if we could end world war three so that the civilians can go back to their peaceful lives.

and he replied that we DID NOT START WORLD WAR THREE IN THE FIRST PLACE.

but i win because i say so.

me and my imagination...

nini.. stop imaginating...

stop generating weird thoughts in your head...

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...............................

sidetrack: ah lun is going to his company's dinner and dance and the theme is OSCARS and he refuse to follow the theme.

so not fun one.

if its me i'll dress up as ______________________.

haha.. Dont ask me, ask OCBC.

=)

the heart will be better if you add some salt to its wound

Sun, 07 Sep 2008 15:27:53 GMT

u dun have to know why or where i am moving.

you can ask but i wun tell.

dun ask me why.

u must be thinking i am outta my mind.

ya.. maybe i am

laugh at me for all u want.

i'm so sick of living........................................

bring me wth u power ranger...

bring me...

i am sick and tired of all the fights, heartbreaks, backstabs, superficiality, lies, nonsense from all this world.

i really want u to bring me wth u.

but why? why did my only hope, u, my power ranger disappoint me too?

why????

i miss the old u, my power ranger ah gong.

denise made my day =)

Fri, 05 Sep 2008 08:26:39 GMT

i opened the mailbox and i saw a envelope with my name on it.

saw the return add and it indicated tampines.

so, three person came to my mind.

Denise, Pei and Ah neo.

i thot it was pei..

bt realised that it was impossible since she has alrd given me my bday gift and there's no reason why she would

give me two presents even though she loves me.

so i figured that it was denise since the add says 6th floor.

i opened it very slowly for fear or destroying whats inside coz denise always handmade me nice stuffs =)

AND....

IT WAS A CHARLES AND KEITH VOUCHER!!!!!

OMG!!!!! so high la.

even though i got dawn to hint cucalamonga.

they didnt get me the voucher.

but gt me ang bao which was the tradition.

i remembered letting out a bimbotic answer like"huh, why no voucher".

That was when they wanted to kill me and say give you cash to buy mah. -_-"

Dawn failed as my spy to hint. hmm.. nx year dun ask me to hint them for ur bday gift hor.

Thank u Denise.. U have made my day.

I love it =) ps: denise, the nini handphone pouch inside has price tag attached.. hahaah =p

Yay.. I forsee myself going to charles and keith very soon. =)

i'll chop u into a million pieces and burn u untill u become chao ta

Tue, 02 Sep 2008 15:05:55 GMT

The Queen is hopping mad~

and no i shall not blog about my bday when i am angry.

if i could i lwill spit fire at you and burn you chao ta!!!

stupid bugger........

ah lun's fren viewed my friendster and went to report to him the mushy shoutout in my profile.

i wonder if u meant it as a compliment or insult when u told ah lun this.

now u're making me feel retarded and silly.

and i freaking hate that.

and it gets worst when i know that i am having my extreme mood swings symptoms before the period knocks on my door.

dont u have better things to do besides spreading tales and stirring up trouble?

GET A LIFE.

SUCKER

YES I AM FUCKING PISSED AND YOU ARE FUCKING DEAD.

*ROAR*

BIG TWO

Sun, 31 Aug 2008 14:33:23 GMT

i am entering the BIG TWO in 1 HOUR plus time.

I will not be a teen anymore.

ahhhh *gasp*

panic..

bt still cannot watch RA film. haha

ahhhhhhhhhh.. i dun want to grow old..

Sun, 31 Aug 2008 07:28:58 GMT

eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee....

dear brain, stop hallucinating and generate weird thots.

but continue to generate more ideas for seet's assignment.

i'm only at pg 2.

1 more pg nini...

sidetrack: i wonder hw ah lun do for his nike run

this is such a random post.

i know

ha =)